Thanksgiving and not “Why not me”1 min read

I thought this was something I had overcome. After years of been a christian, you make assumptions on the things that can get at you.
A colleague got something that I really wanted ahead of me. I applied for it before he did and by the natural order of things, I should get it before him.
I know I’m still getting it. But my first response to him getting it ahead of me was “why not me?”
It may be a natural human response but it is not a christian response. I was reminded that I need to be thankful for him – even if he got it ahead of me.
So, I thank God for him that he got it.
Getting it first is not always the sign that I’m one of God’s kids. Responding to all things with a Christ heart is a more sure sign of this
I am still getting it so I wonder why the fuss in my mind.
Maybe because of the many years of hearing preachers say “getting things first is a sign of been special to God” has sowed the small seed of silent resentment at the success of my neighbour